To Dye For
10 Sunday Jun 2012
Of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important. They say laughter is the best cosmetic because it puts blush to your cheeks and to your soul. A laugh is a smile that bursts. And i love candid photos as much as i love this tie-dyed cropped top with fringes and acid-washed cutoffs Hooray for my new header too! Do you like it?
I used to hate (or maybe fear) summer especially the month of May. Because it is always this time that i lose someone or something. It is the month of goodbyes and self-deprecation. But it is also the time to bounce back and be better. I learned that pain makes you stronger, fear makes you braver, heartbreak makes you wiser and failure makes you better. When the world has grown tired of deriding me, i want to die with as many bruises and scars as possible. I am trying to be someone that i could be proud of in twenty years or more and when i look back, i wouldn’t regret a thing.
There’s nothing wrong with spending time alone. You need to know how to be alone and not be defined by another person. It is impossible for me to be empty, thoughtless for even a fraction of a second. Either I am always dreaming forward or reminscing backwards. Jackson brown once said, “Let the refining and improving of your own life keep you so busy that you have little time to criticize (or compare yourself to) others.”
Well for me i am happily bumming around with family and friends. It’s been a long time since i had this much time in my hands. I wake up without any fear or worry but with a brighter perspective in life. I had the strength to let go of things not worth it and the courage to chase my real dream somewhere down under. But for now, i am really enjoying the present.
And i am happy with just being myself (even with my awkward smile). I take photos because they say it lasts longer. I write to understand life and to make me feel better. I paint when words are between to little and too much. I laugh at myself because it shows the human side of me. I blog to inspire. I try to act as if what i do makes a difference.
And i’d rather be called a “Passion Blogger” because this blog also helps me in finding who i really am through my stories and dreams. I want to be known more, not for the clothes i wear, but for the heart that i have.
Here are some of my Instagram photos from last May and you may follow me with my username: itsdeardenise This is what i wore to our Greenfields City Ultimate Invitational Way to go team Typhoons! We finished strong!
It’s the little things that count and i had a blast this summer! Being (more like choosing to be) jobless means having more time for my family, for my friends, for God and for myself. From amazing music festival to sound-tripping on the road, from sleepover with girlfriends to date with daddy, from Ultimate games and training to epic nights with the team, from Mother’s day to Mum’s birthday, from looking ridiculous with my sister to midnight binging, from regular visits to the dentist to spontaneous trips like gigs, from wet and wild adventures to chilling at coffee shops, from going back to my school to crashing houses, from going out with no makeup on to murdering my hair to make it look beachy and wavy, from college friends’ birthday celebration to partying with my sister at a hotel, from staying for a week at our grandmother’s to shopping spree for free, from helping my friend for his work to teaching my sister how to commute for her internship, from food-tripping at day to midnight intoxication with good friends, from going back to the strings to writing prose, from being with the people i love most to being just with myself – i couldn’t have asked for more!! What i’m living for is worth dying for. How about you?