31 Monday Oct 2011
As cliche as it seems, things really do happen for a reason. For five months i was on a rocky road of failures and heartbreaks. I had sleepless nights feeling helpless and thinking that maybe i am just worthless. The plan of studying in Australia came crashing down too. But i reminded myself not to give up and to follow my dream. I have to keep going and to push harder. I had countless of job applications and I have gone through a series of interviews. I kept searching on job engines for an appropriate job (i applied for about 47 job posts online plus 5 companies i emailed but never heard from) and sent cover letters and cv for the ones i’m interested at (i didn’t go for the arabic translator haha). I went to job fairs with my family and one time just alone. My friend and i randomly picked floors on the elevator and tried submitting resumes directly on some companies too. We also went job hunting nearby and gave it to the security guards (yeah we thought of replacing them haha). I learned how to commute alone and sometimes with a friend going to the city. When i got called in for interviews, i took exams and had gone through nerve-wracking interviews by a superior or a panel. I even had the intense group interview and the weird why-the hell-am-i-being-interviewed-in-a-house-kind of thing. I turned down jobs that i don’t like and I was also on the verge of accepting a job that would sacrifice my health and safety. Then i had experienced all kinds of rejections. Name it. I was rejected online and personally but sometimes they just don’t contact you further. The worst was when i was rejected in front of other people and it felt really really awful. A rejection letter was handed to me in front of my co-applicants and i was asked to leave the room. It felt like i was in a beauty contest! Haha. I almost cried in the cab going nowhere (with dramatic background music). I was frustrated and depressed. I’m really having a hard time looking for a job that suits me and to think that what i want is way not related to my college course. I really want to pursue something i am passionate about whatever it takes. I waited patiently and hoped for something better. I don’t want to just settle.
I had an interview a month ago at Mega Publishing Group. When they first called me for an interview i had chills all over my body and i was sitting there at the lobby thinking, wow this is my dream right in front of my face. I would do anything to get the job. When they asked me why do i want to work there? It’s because i couldn’t see myself working for anyone else. This has been my dream ever since i was little. When they asked me why should they hire me, i answered this is where i am passionate about (and probably the only thing good at). Then i waited. And waited. I couldn’t sleep for nights wondering what if i didn’t nail the interview or what if they don’t like me. I already accepted the fact that maybe it’s not yet for me now.
But finally, i got a call again a few days ago! Actually i wasn’t able to answer it and i panicked and couldn’t sleep for the entire night. So i called them in the morning and they broke into me the good news. I got accepted and they’re offering me the job! Oh my gosh. I jumped and almost screamed to the person i’m talking to on the phone. I was literally shaking and had goosebumps all over my body. It was so surreal and i couldn’t believe that i landed on my dream job!!! Dreams do come true.
I was chosen to be their editorial coordinator. Yaaaay! And look who i will be directly reporting to! Bianca Gonzales is my boss! Oh my god. I was speechless when i read this. This is more than what i asked for. To be honest, i’m pretty scared. But i am more thrilled and excited to be able to do something everyday i would really enjoy. I am ready for the challenge as i meet different people and live in a new environment. I am so lucky i have this chance because career options nowadays are limited and boxed up. Now i look like ugly betty and have a work the same as hers in real life! I am really happy i got my dream as my first job! Thank you Lord for this blessing and my deepest gratitude to those who helped me and reminded me not to give up. Now i get it why i didn’t get the barista job or the other marketing associate posts on 7 companies i applied for (i think). Now i get it why the Australia plan didn’t push through. I know what it feels like to be struggling and the feeling of being not good enough. I know what it feels like to wait for something you thought would never happen and to be rejected in all ways possible. You are not alone. Just pray and don’t stop believing that God has a better plan for you. Go after your dream and never stop trying. Everything is worth the wait.